Apr 3, 2006

4 years of my professional life

Time has taken it's course relentlessly, April 7th marks completion of 4 yrs in my life outside college.

My first day at emuzed is still fresh and vivid in memories, I remember introducing myself going desk to desk. I still recollect my first salary, a sum of Rs.27028, and castles I built in day dreams.

During my first year, I was so excited with the assembly code that I skipped few lunches and stayed long in the evenings. Next 2 years I was totally drawn into money, as if there was no means other than it. Though initially I was not much given to power politics, natural tendency and association with wrong people took it's toll on me, sometimes I had taken other's problems as my own, so stupid I was. Overall, as I started exploring more into internals of emuzed, I somewhere deeply felt we (not I, I was stupid again) were not getting right due, disparities plagued, I felt like I was waging a lost war.

Sooner a never heard offer of 12 lakhs per annum at 2.8 yr experience greeted me from nVidia, a company people dream to work for in USA. Days started rolling at nVidia rather slowly. I felt cheated with the kind of work I've been asked to do. I was again in the middle of ocean. Money was no more inciting my senses, I was worried a lot, pain was so unbearable that I quit it in less than 4 months. I could recollect my last day at nVidia, my friends who came to my house to bid farewell, I took flight on the very night I resigned to join in a less known company ocean away. It was probably shock to people back at home whom I never told my intentions, it was a desperate decision I took in haste after swinging heavily within myself.

I am swarmed by several questions, initially about money, I couldn't digest the unfair advantage people in USA command over pity engineers in India. It has dragged me into understanding economics, and I realized it is this unfair advantage that has got me a job in India and not my masters at IIT.

Now I feel like not working, I'm slowly drifting into world of economics, wonder where I'm heading, time has to take it's own course.